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I'm crying over spilled milk!

Changes is one of the constant things that I really hated in this life. I know it really sounds absurd, but I really damn hate it. I know changes is the key to become a better person, a mature one!One thing that I really hate is the fact that when you established your bond toward something or someone, you will wake up one day and you'll be surprise of the certain changes...puff! It's like a slipped of a thunder and then it will suddenly gasp your entire world. This particular scenario makes me cry over spilled milk again, I really hated myself being in this kind of situation. For more than a month and until this day I found my self alone and crying in my room like a kid crying over her ruin toy. I'm not a kid anymore and I know that this pain I've felt inside, can't just be healed by some candies or chocolates. To make it straight it's all about my relationship with this particular person, I don't know if you can called it a relationship or not. All I know is that I love him and for some reason I know that he loves me too. Some people doesn't understand the love that I felt for him, and even my own self can't explain it why or how I felt this way. My status now is in between being a single and being committed, in other word it's complicated. Like what I've post here before I was officially involved in the “long distance relationship”, this was my first relationship ever. Ive never experience having a boyfriend not until now. Before I never felt the distance between us, although physically we don't feel each other but the thought of always talking on-line makes he's presence felt. Then due to the twist of fate, the word “change” knock in our door. We didn't talk that much like what we used to before, the communication crush. These thing torn me into pieces...I really miss him, I miss our long talk, I miss him the way he smile at me, I miss him when he sings at me and I miss him more than the world knows. I know he's quit busy now with he's study, and I understand that, even thought its really hard for me. I hope he knows that I can't stop thinking about him from the moment I go to the bed until I woke up. Some of my friends think that I am stupid, they even laugh at me (sorry friends, but I don't care!). It's like that I'm driving a car and I don't know where it leads to or what path to go through, But I keep my fingers cross and ask God to guide me in this relationship all the way. Honestly I really don't want that this relationship to end and for this I'm still holding on. I still give my best shot knowing I'm slowly dying in pain, if ever this relationship will not going to work-out (I'm knocking on the wood now...lol), at least he experienced how to be loved by a "True Lover".

***To tell you frankly I really don't want to post this, aside from way to personal I'm also afraid to be laugh at and I don't want all of you to think that I'm making my self look pity, but this blog is my on-line diary, my sanctuary whenever I felt I don't belong in the real world.***

P.S. For you:I love you and I hope the little love you've once felt for me before, was still there. I miss you.









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11 Cinderella's Commentos:

mAryLyka said...

oisstt...nsa ibang planeta ba xa? hehe!joke lng..actually brey, if u really love him den all u need to do is to trust him...sana nga the same feeling p rin nsa knya! But if things go wrong then find the best one :)! Dpat c Mr. Right na! hehe :)

Princess Cinderella said...

hahahay..lagi lyks..pero paranoid ko sometimes oi..hahahay....ma buing ko..hahaha..pero aja!kailangan e sa kanta pa "it must have been love"..lol

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jean said...

oist.. ayaw pud cry my friend.. hayaan mong sila ang iiyak at hindi ikaw.. sayang ang beauty natin.. long distance relationship?? hmmp... need lng ng trust yan para maging successful ang relation.. Pero alam mo ba,, para sa akin mas gusto ko ang long distance para magawa ko lahat ng gusto ko.. bwahahhaha,,,, walang magbabantay,...

kaya ako hanggat kaya ko, hindi ako iiyak.. para ano?? tsaka Mr. right will come....

If kayo talaga.. tadhana rin ang maghahanap ng paraan... hahahahah murag si Hawod ko noh???

bevs said...

Helo madz! ingon ka no more emo2 aubrey..hahaha joke lang..It's ok madz, naa lang mi mga eversun_berks to support you. I have been through pain, pirti jud ning gugma!huh!hehe Trust lang ky GOD, nothing is impossible.

Engr. Cesar Noel said...

I understand that you really missed him and obviously both of you are struggling on how to maintain your long distance relationship but you should give more time to yourself. If HE really loves you,he'll make an effort to communicate with you. Be strong. wak ka na emo emo jan heheheh joke lang. Seriously don't be to hard on yourself if HE's not for you than you should be open yourself to change. Malay mo may darating na much better pa di ba? Charing hehe Talk to Papa naman hinoon ta ani ehehhehe.

From the Eyes of my Heart said...

its okay cinderella =) I am sure everything will be fine. i can see that you really love him so hold on and keep the faith *hugs*

Aice Nice Concepts said...

Brey, I know what you're feeling now
T_T maka relate gyud ko
remember I told you before waaaa!!!

anyway, may tama si cesar! (lalake na gud na) and to tell you lalake lang din un nag advice sa aking ng tulad sa advice din ni cesar...


long distance really hurts but if the "faith is strong" it may surpass all the trials

pero never be hard on yourself! ok?

kaya nga i told you eh takot na ako sa long distance relationship remember i told you sa SM noon nasarahan tayo "ok lang long distance basta at least nakasama mo siya personally kahit in a few days, weeks or months" kasi iba parin yung connection ng talagang nakikita mo personally 'yong isang tao..
unless both of you talked everyday via WebCam gaya ng ginawa ko noon waaaa!!! wag na ibalik ang nakaraan T_T

nga pala you have been tag on my blog please check it out ^_^

cheer up na girl and pray always for guidance.

stev & emz said...

wow.. i know what you are feeling girl. Im in that situation before! I cant believe that I was so in love with this guy who I only talked for just a couple of days. His great sense of humor, talking everyday, and calling me baby does the trick, that makes me head over heals even though he is thousands of miles away. sounds crazy huh? it slowly drifted away knowing that there is no chance to be together. Depression came into my life and grab the first guy who came along.hehehe.. that happened twice but it was more different because i was the one who change. and then met the 3rd guy on the net and everything just came into place. he is my husband now. So.. Cheerup girl! you are still young... if not meant meaning meron pa dyan sa tabi tabi na karapat dapat. =) good luck sis! just smile always..

Princess Cinderella said...

thanks to all my co-bloggers who make used of their time commenting on this emo post..thank you I really appreciated it, I like all your comment.....don't worry everything will be ok....i know god will help me on this matter...thank you all..

Marie said...

Cry when you want to cry. It's really that good when you cry it out. Dont just keep them inside, ok? I know things will gonna be better in time..Cheer up,ok? :)

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