A right quotes for me?

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love,
because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall. ~
Unknown ~

Now tell me does it make sense?

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The art of Letting Go....

I was surfing the internet and found this cute story about a girl who learn the art of letting go.For some letting go of someone is an easy process as eating a piece of cake but for others including myself this is a painful process that it's hard to overcome. I know myself more that anything else and I know if I have to let go of someone this could be a very difficult process and it took me years to move on from the glimpse of memories.When I read this story somehow it made me realized, that in life you have to face that fact that some things doesn't last forever. You have to let it go and continue exploring life. To let go is not to deny but to accept. To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and to live for the future. To let go is to fear less and to love more.Although it's painful but beneficial for us... Whenever I go people keep on telling me that "things happens for a reason", yeah I know things happens for a reason...I may never know why these things happened in my life now but I'm sure someday at the right time it will be answered and it all make sense.

Here's the story...

Letting Go Author:Dee Edgett
There was once a lonely girl who longed desperately for love. One day while she was walking in the woods she found two starving song birds. She took them home and put them in a small glided cage. She nurtured them with love and the birds grew strong. Every morning they greeted her with a marvellous song. The girl felt great love for the birds. She wanted their singing to last forever.One day the girl left the door to the cage open. The larger and stronger of the two birds flew from the cage. The girl watched anxiously as he circled high above her. She was so frightened that he would fly away and she would never see him again that as he flew close, she grasped at him wildly. She caught him in her fist. She clutched him tightly within her hand. Her heart gladened at her sucess in capturing him. Suddenly she felt the bird go limp. She opened her hand stared in horror at the dead bird. Her desperate clutching love had killed him.She noticed the other bird teteering on the edge of the cage. She could feel his great need for freedom. His need to soar into the clear, blue sky. She lifted him from the cage and tossed him softly into the air. The bird circled once, twice, three times.The girl watched delighted at the bird's enjoyment. Her heart was no longer concerned with her loss. She wanted the bird to be happy. Suddenly the bird flew closer and landed softly on her shoulder. It sang the sweetest melody, she had ever heard.

***The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tight, the best way to keep love is to give it -- WINGS!***

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Starting to move on......

This month is a depressing month for me....I hope things will be better...I have no one to talk too, even my friends I can't open to them the things that bugging me. Well I have to make an effort to relieve this pain I don't want to look miserable all my life. Lately I'm going out with my friends.

Here's our picture....

***Me and Hannah at Jollibee***


***With my Office Buddies***
Me and Wiwit....then Bevs and Glenn ("the lovers")


***The Girls at KFC***


***Have you noticed? I keep on eating ice cream..."hmmmm..depressed nag ako"***

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The So called "Break-Up"

How do I begin this post...***gasp*** ("I need to breath")Ok...after how many months of battling from trials my so called "relationship" finally comes to end...hahahay...I though we can surpass the obstacles we're facing in our relationship.I keep on praying and hoping that one day this trials will be over, but I guess my prayer didn't answer especially if your the only one making an effort to work it out.I didn't say that he doesn't make an effort to make our relationship work, actually we both struggle to make it work ("really struggle") but most of the effort comes from me. For me I don't care I love him and I want to gave my all, well now I realized that love isn't the key to make the relationship last. I love him too much maybe because of that he choose to leave, I don't know what's real reason all I know is there's a third party involve not at my part but him. I have my own faults too I become too possessive and insensitive in some area. Actually I can say that "I really hate him so much, because of that", but honestly if I listen to my heart I don't feel any grudge towards him although I keep on crying every night, thinking all about the memories. I really can't explain my side now I know I'm in pain and I felt I'm wasted, but at the back of every tear for me he's still a good person I really don't know, maybe I'm just stupid to believe that. And one thing it's very weird I know I am weird but this thing keep on lingering in my thoughts that I'm hoping that one day he will be back and everything will be fine!("thats stupid!hate it..."). But I don't want my hopes up cause I already did that but unfortunately it doesn't work, I promised to myself not to tolerate my stupidity ("I hope so"). I really hate memories that thing haunt me over and over again, I'm the type of person that can remember almost anything whether it's a happy memories or a sad one.Hahay I really miss him...I missed the way he smile, hes crazy jokes("i remember the day he's wearing he's taliban outfit...that's really funny he really look like one of the abbu sayyaf member...and one thing he ate a popsicle, knowing that it's so cold in he's place it's snowing he said he did that to feel that he's in the tropical country...he's really crazy")..I missed he's voice when he talk and when he sings at me ("he's the only guy who sings at me")... I missed he's humor when we chat, I have to stop this it's very depressing...***sigh***..Oh well I'm almost ok right know...almost?hehehe, It's hard to move on, even we know it's just a simple two words...but by doing that you really have to struggle. Good thing I have my friend Jessa who keeps on comforting me over the net...("thanks girl..I really appreciate that.."), she's living in U.S now with her husband. I really don't know where to start to move on , even my boss told me to keep busy ("thanks Mark"). As off this moment I keep myself busy, I made another lay-outs for my upcoming blog. I know time will heals all the wound, I hope it will...Even though it was a short love story but I'm glad I meet him and I really don't know if I can love again the same way I love him, if he only knew how painful it is for me. I have to fake my smile to everyone just to came up strong and every night I'm subbing with tears...."i don't want to fall in love again"...arrrggg....

Realization:
*guys can be such ignorant, egotistic, and dense assholes. enough said.
*ldr -long distance relationship is not a healthy relationship, so don't try it.
*Don't love much cause love can weaken a relationship.
*Just trust a little don't give everything cause sometimes it's just a waste.

P.S : "I hope you will find your happiness and I hope she's the right girl that I've been praying for you from the day we meet and until now. I wish I am but I failed....well sorry for the things that I've said and I want you to know that I don't have any grudges for you even you really hurt me...ingats"

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My new blog design that I've made....

I'm so exhausted today, but proud of myself I made my own template..hahaha...Well the xml code came from finalsense, but I change some of the original codes and enhance my designed using Adobe Photoshop CS3. Honestly I don't know how to used Photoshop CS3 before and until know I'm still learning on it ("Thanks to my two designer friends Richard("the one who made my header in my old blog designed") and Fafa Ariel ("the one who made my friensdster header"), "thank you guys...I've learn a lot, now Cinderella will not bothering you anymore..hahaha"

I decided to change my blog designed for three reason. First I don't like the designed of my old blog cause when I made it I'm so depressed at the time (emo2x thing). Second I'm sick and tired of the of the designed,it doesn't reflect the real me..."A girl that is bubbly and enthusiastic,even sometimes she's crying over spilled milk when life turns her down".Third I want to look my blog that is full of life, even some of my post is still in emo.

My Old Blog Design:

My New Blog Design:

Well tell me is it look great?I know it so feminine, but what can I do I'm just a girl....and this is my closet....

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Untitled poem

You say that you’ll love me forever but what about today

As the dusks become dawns and the years pass on will you
Love me the same way
If so let us rejoice and bath in constant pleasure
If not spare my heart today and I shall recover before forever
And if my doubts and questions upset you, forgive my fragile heart
I just wanted to know if you’d love me forever
Before today would start!

***It's called untitled poem, cause honestly I don't know what the tittle of this poem will be. I got this from my mads Jo, a poem without a tittle. I wanted to put a tittle on it, but I can't think of any.Sorry I thought this week I will be back on my track again, but unfortunately it's worsen. Still not in the mood to write and so depress, feeling alone and empty. My heart is shattered again in pieces, soon I will post it what I really felt right now. I'm not selfish I know this is the truth behind my closet, but accept my apology. I'm not ready to share it to everyone my feelings right now, even to my closest friends. I need to find some time alone and figure everything thats bothering me.****

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